01/31/02 - Thursday
Site: Sheilds Up
Sounds: Nothing
(09:46 a.m.)
This brilliant piece of advise was sent to me by my friend Patty. It needs to be done!!
**When you get ads in your phone or utility bill, include them with the
payment. Let them throw it away.
**When you get those pre approved letters in the mail for everything from
credit cards to 2nd mortgages and junk like that, most of them come with
postage paid return envelopes, right? Well, why not get rid of some of your
other junk mail and put it in these cool little envelopes! Send an ad for
your local dry cleaner to American Express. Or a pizza coupon to Citibank.
(I especially liked this!) If you didn't get anything else that day, then
just send them their application back! If you want to remain anonymous,
just make sure your name isn't on anything you send them. You can Send it
back empty if you want to just to keep them guessing! Eventually, the banks
and credit card companies will begin getting all their junk back in the
mail.
Let's let them know what it's like to get junk mail, and best of all THEY'RE
paying for it! Twice! Let's help keep our postal service busy since they say
e-mail is cutting into their business, and that's why they need to increase
postage again!
Send this to a friend or two or three...or fifty....
Bloody brilliant!!
01/29/02 - Tuesday
Site:None
Sounds: Nothing
(12:02 p.m.)
What kind of person are you?
Do you do things for other people because you want to do them or because you want credit for doing them? Do you do them with the hopes that you'll get something back in return or do you give yourself unconditionally? Do you only want to control the outcome?
It's interesting finding out what people's motives really are. Most times they don't even know. Deep seeded want? Fear? Desperation? Seems like most people today need constant reminders of their self worth by people who aren't really deemed fit to give that opinion.
We are constantly searching for beauty when we should be creating it.
People would rather have the quick fix
of superficial kindness then the hassle of fighting for truth. People guide you to say what they want you to say so you can enable their damage souls. People run from the truth because truth does not come as easy as superficial kindness. You have to work at it. And people are too lazy to work. Maybe someone should invent a remote control for truth.
People cry out for help and are desperate to release their angst but they never want to actually hear the truth. They want to know why they feel like they do...why is this happening to them...what did they do to deserve this? Unfortunately it becomes everybody elses fault but their own.
As soon as you speak truth people start to get defensive. I always say that "being defensive is the beginning sign of guilt".
I love watching the patterns of peoples lives. I love watching how they ignore those patterns and make every excuse in the book to pretend they don't exist.
I used to do that. Sometimes I still do. And maybe I always will.
I guess what I'm saying is just be aware of what kind of person you are. Take responsibility for you as a person. You created your persona..you live with it. Why do you do things? What are your reasons?
Being human has nothing to do with what you do but has everything to do with why you do it.
So before you start wondering if I'm
writing about you in particular I'll save you the time....Yes! I am writing about you. I'm writing about all of you. I'm writing about me. No one is exempt.
So...What kind of person are you?
01/28/02 - Monday
Site: None
Sounds: Zilch (NOT FILCH)- "Electric Cucumber"
(03:35 a.m.)
Where to begin...
O.k. first of all I'm feeling better. Sort of....
Yesterday in the midst of my porcupine throat I managed to gouge out a chunk of flesh the size of a quarter from my foot. Um...owww!
Secondly, I bought Sound Forge and am loving it so far. Cool thing is that they're doing a buy one get one free deal so I mailed my certificate in for a free copy of Acid DJ.
Sound Forge makes it really easy to record from records or tapes and such but it's going to be tedious figuring out all the effects and added things. I'm sure I'll be wasting lots o' time doing that.
Thirdly, well...there really is no thirdly I guess. There is lots to say but...oh yeah...I worked out today despite
my hobbled foot. I couldn't do it for as long as I would have liked but I did it anyway. I mainly used the bike cause it doesn't really require me to lift my foot.
So everybody send me sympathy mail and make sure to wish me well...pwease.
Now comes the dilemma. Should I start on my homework
or should I mess around with recording some more (knowing I have no school tomorrow and can cram everything in then)?
Burn baby burn...
01/27/02 - Sunday
Site: None
Sounds: Gene Loves Jezebel - "Desire"
(09:06 a.m.)
oooh...I've gotta porcupine in my froat..
I should be at work but I'm under the weather. It was bound to happen 'cause I haven't been getting enough sleep, I've changed my diet (so my body's going through a revolt),
two of my teachers and my therapist are sick and it's a full moon. 'Nuff said. The good news is I never stay sick long since I don't smoke or drink anymore and I'm stocked up on Echinacea, zinc lozenges (with vit. C & Echinacea) and Thayers Slipper Elm Throat Lozenges.
I'm set!
I ended up buying a Sony tape deck yesterday at Best Buy so I did pretty well. I bought all the cables and everything to hook it up to my mixing board (to record me singing) and the cable to hook it
up to my computer (to make MP3's of me singing). So far everything works but I need to find a good program that will allow me to record from the tape player (or turntable) and create wavs. I'm either going to get Acid DJ or Sound Forge.
I'm not sure which is better or even if either are worth it. So if any of you have an opinion just mail me before 3 p.m. today. Ta!
01/26/02 - Saturday
Site: None
Sounds: Strange Days - Soundtrack
(11:25 a.m.)
hola! I've been such a good boy today! I finished all of my homework! Did all of my spanish flash-cards, did my math chapter, read chapter 4 in public speaking and finished my
computer homework!
Anth and I started our workout stuff yesterday so I'm a little sore. I think my crankiness is going away too (as the world gives a collective sigh of relief). Must 'ave been my time of the month.
Uncle Sam's been good
to me this year!! My income tax was deposited yesterday!! Woo-hoo! Tele-file rules!
I'm hitting Best Buy later and will tell you all the gory details (if I burn a hole through my pocket) later.
Hasta la bye bye...
01/24/02 - Thursday
Site: None
Sounds: Bjork - "Homogenic"
(8:01 p.m.)
I'm all fat and happy and with good for you food! Found a great recipe for vegan cream sauce
and it actually came out good. If you try it, just make sure to season it really really well. We put that over veggie pasta and roasted squash! I ate way too much!
I finished the Hide hat for Lainey. I think it came out really good. Hopefully she'll think so too.
I'm gonna take some pics of it and show all what it looks like after I give it to Lainey tomorrow.
So you
better be at school tomorrow if you want your prize!!
I'm off to bathe.
Site: None
Sounds: Arcadia - "So Red The Rose"
(9:44 a.m.)
Ahhh sleep needed me. I had the messed up dream life last night. But it was such a great thing because I feel like a whole new person.
All my angst is gone.
Tom wrote me a beautiful letter that really cheered me up too. Made me remember that the people who I think I want to be friends with pale in comparison to those who are
already my true friends. The grass is always greener and all that jazz. I forgive myself though. I'm allowed.
01/23/02 - Wednesday
Site: Zen Guide
Sounds: Erykah Badu - "Live"
(3:27 p.m.)
What a shitty day! Rain, rain, rain....and school sucked! I had to do all the make up work for missing Friday.
I brought this on myself though. I took my spanish quiz, gave my personal speech and made up my math test during my break. So, it's over. Done with. Gone.
Did you ever
notice that there are days (usually the days you really need to vent) when people who ask you "how are you" really don't give a shit?! I had no less then three people pull that
with me today. One of them actually tried to out-do me...like it's a fucking competition! Sometimes I forget that people just don't give a damn about anyone but themselves and that
they are only going through the motions of feigning interest in your life.
I know what's really going on. I'm going through withdraws! I ate too much sugar and crap in December and
now that I'm trying to get back to my regular eating habits my body (and mind) is pissed off. Sugar withdraw makes you do cah-ray-zee things. Worse then when I quit smoking (in my opinion).
So anyway, here I sit wanting to rage but being too mature to actually do it. I just get so sick of being nice! Ironic 'cause I'm sure most people think I'm an asshole.
Good!
01/22/02 - Tuesday
Site: None
Sounds: Nothing
(9:12 p.m.)
Blah blah blah blah blah. Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah. Blah blah blah blah blah?
Just kidding...therapy was good. Let's just say there will be no gun towers in my future (kidding Elena!!). I've just spent the last few hours knitting Lainey's Hide hat and
studying my spanish for my quiz tomorrow. I've made plans to take my math test the hour before my actual math class (so I don't miss any new stuff), I've officially dropped P.E. and the world
still spins on it's axis.
Life is good.
Peace on Earth.
Good will toward men...
Blah blah blah blah blah. Blah blah blah blah blah.
HI TOM!
Site: None
Sounds: Hide - "Hi-Ho"
(8:19 a.m.)
Ahhh! Therapy day! I can't wait to see Elena. It is time.
I had a great day yesterday. Went over to Lainey's, picked up Anth,
went to Black Mountain to get yarn for Lainey's Hide hat, ate yummie vegan pizza at Mellow Mushroom, went back to Lainey's and she burned me a Hide Video CD which I'm listening to right at this very moment.
I've decided to drop the P.E. class I added last Monday.
I'm still going to work out but I can't have 5 classes in a row. I'm going to drop that class and work out during free time after my last class. So I'm back down to 16 credit hours which is right on track. Plus, seeing as I flaked out on Friday I still have to give my
speech and take my math test tomorrow.
It's good to be king!
01/21/02 - Monday
Site: Gaiam
Sounds: Melissa Etheridge - "Breakdown"
(9:13 a.m.)
Happy MLK day!
I woke up bright and squirrely this morning and started cleaning. I really (desperately) need to get my computer room in order. There's shit everywhere!
I'm not as anal as I used to be but I get stressed when things aren't in there place. I just have too much shit!
My stereo in here is so messed up. It stopped playing CD's. I think 'cause I played too many CDR's in it and it's not
really made for that. Oh well!
Lainey and I are going to pick out some yarn today so's I can make her a Hide hat that looks something like this:
It shouldn't be too hard to make. I'll just work on it while I'm sleeping!
*kidding Lainey*
I love making stuff like that!
O.k. enough! I swore I would get my homework done and that's what I'm gonna do!
Buh-bye!
01/20/02 - Sunday
Site: Learn Spanish
Sounds: Nothing
(4:04 p.m.)
Sundays...what can I say about Sundays?
I've thought of bitching about how boring my job is but instead I've decided that I should be grateful I have a
job where I'm not busting my ass all day. I could bring my homework. I could do almost anything there. So, bitching is out. Plus, I only work one day a week so who can complain?!
Being slow at work does make it feel like
you've been there twice as long though.
Anyway, I just got home so I don't have much to say.
Maybe more later.
Ciao!